NURTURE YOURSELF
GIVING UP PATTERNS OF SELF SABOTAGE
My Initial plan for this section, was to focus on healthy diet, exercise and holistic healthcare, treats such as massages and energy work . All the usual healthy habits that compliments a healthy mind. That was my automatic ’Nurse Mind’ at work,. The “we can do this, so let’s get this done sensibly mode. However it slowly dawned on me, that I was making the assumption that anyone interested in seeking the truth, or a Spiritual path, would already know what to do to take care of their mental health. And it was only after finding myself disagreeing yet again with something that yet another spiritual teacher wrote, implying once again that you are responsible for whatever shows up in your life.
And so as I found myself thinking that why that is technically true, it’s still amounts to victim blaming because no one willingly choose pain and suffering and decides to mess up their own lives for no good reason. It is always the automatic programs playing in the background that causes self sabotage. It was then that I had one of those moments of inspiration. I had been writing the post about “falling in Love with Humanity to create change,” and got to the reason why it really doesn’t matter whether the object was deserving or not, and thinking to myself, that I should really explain in some detail what were the usual causes behind ‘bad behavior.’ but that it would take far too long and that it would only cloud the focus of the post.
So I thought, instead of focusing on the more superficial ways to get a healthy mind, why not turn this section about self nurturing into addressing something that I’ve wanted to do for a long time: Those subconscious patterns and programs that cause human beings to sabotage themselves, make wrong choices and generally place limits of themselves and abilities, some so severe as to be crippling ; all these are usually the result of childhood trauma that they themselves have suffered, causing them to repeating the unresolved trauma of their parents and social groups.,
If you find yourself consistently falling short of the goals that you’ve set for yourself; whether they are spiritual or life goals, the solution is not to double down and do more, or even to just carry and power through whatever you think the problem is. Instead the solution is to gain insight to the negative psychological aspects of your choices and behavior by self examination and then once you’ve uncovered the programs that have resulted from past negative experiences, to free yourself from subconscious program that have doubtlessly been impeding you. Once the process is started, it always leads unerringly to the next step which is to forgive and make peace with a parent and anyone else who negatively influenced you as a child. That is how to find the true Joy that life should be. I cannot say it enough, the role of forgiveness is crucial to finding wisdom and understanding, and to be able to give and receive love. To be free!.
But how do you do that?. How do you re-parent your inner child, or break free from toxic relationships and emotions?. just realizing the need and being willing to take the necessary steps to examine the emotional wounds that stand in your way. will already get you half way on the road back to true self determination and sound mental health. Being a nurse taught me a lot about the human condition. And this stood me in good stead allowing me to free myself on my own journey of self awareness and understanding. Nowadays as a figurative artist, I find myself still using psychological insight as I paint or sketch not just the subject’s features, but rather the person behind the facial expression and the non-verbal communication that is revealed in body language. Two of my all time favorite artistic quotes comes from artist Alice Neel in the first she states; “ Like Chekhov, I am a collector of souls... if I hadn't been an artist, I could have been a psychiatrist.” She then went on to say; Whether I'm painting or not, I have this overweening interest in humanity. Even if I'm not working, I'm still analyzing people. Which pretty much sums up my own views.
I’m really excited about re-vamping this section so that I can now write about how to use the tools of emotional clearing to free your inner being and empower yourself. I will also be creating some guided meditation videos to help in the process. Ultimately, your goals of spiritual growth and advancement, a kundalini awakening, resetting your biology and many other goals and abilities, spiritual and otherwise, are all dependent on whether or not you are free to live as your divine self.
More to come !!!